Not such a good day sunshine, not much sunshine at all...

Location: Liverpool, England, UK

I'm having a panic attack...

This is way more than I had anticipated. I need you to pep talk me and tell me to suck it up and finish this out. I'm exhausted, depressed, lonely, cold and did I mention exhausted?

:(

I need more sad faces. My eyes are closing too. I'm SOOOO freaking tired, and cold. Mostly cold... the cold keeps me a little more awake. I sat and waited for that stupid internet cafe to open up this morning for nothing. I sat on a freezing cold bench and ate buttery yummy toast that I hardly could taste because I was so cold. I am going to crash.

I'm obviously delirious.

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Comments

[Nat]

Abbeykins!..Deep breath... Are you still amongst the living!? Sounds like you need to get it together. First thing is first, where are you? do you have long underwear on and a hat? If not.. that's your first step. Get warm! Next... You are in Europe.. your parents will be there before you know it and you are NOT ALONE! You are amongst some of the greatest architecture, art, history, fashion, food, and wine in the world!! Go walk around a museum for a while to warm up... sit in a cafe and enjoy some people watching... have you read your book? That sucks about the cyber-cafe. I wish I was there with you! Geez, lord knows if I had the $$ I'd come rescue you/ play.. you don't really need rescuing though, embrace it! NEVER KNOW WHEN YOU'LL GET TO GO BACK!!! ps Make sure you drink enough water. It will help you keep up your energy and get over the time change. I love you and you're going to make it and love it!!!!

[Emily]

I promise it's ok that you feel way in over your head. I have felt that way when I went over there even when I was with my mom and sister. You are an outgoing person, it's just a totally new place and it's ok to feel alone. All you have to think about it the fact that nothing bad is going to come out of you talking to someone new! You'll feel better once you break the meeting new people ice. I am so proud of you for going off on this trip by yourself. I know you're going to have the best time and this will be something you tell your kids about!

[Abbey]

You guys are amazing. Thank you so much, that's exactly what I needed, you have no idea. My family gets in today so I'm definitely looking forward to that and I've totally decided that it's all I need to do to just suck it up and push forward. I think a lot of my panic had to do with being jet-lagged which obviously isn't a problem anymore so I'm feeling much more confident.